sorry haven had time to blog since new year eve at chiayi's place.

Had a nice, nicest new year eve in a LOOOONG time. Spent the evening and night at weimin's place. Than abt 8plus lidat got another of those splitting headaches, better known as migraine. Felt super terrible. and den it feels even worse when everyone else is having fun... and then i'm like lying there, in terrible pain. But David suddenly came and sat beside me, den he lied on me and hugged me. i felt so much better with him around. Still unwell, but much happier. Then he gave me a big kiss! So cute!!! And he din leave me after playing for a while, he just sat there by my side. I tink he knows i'm not well and he doesn want me to be alone. i was actually pretty touched. Then he called chiayi over and the three of us started playing with cookie monster and daffy duck. was actually v happy and v relieved to have these 2 pple by my side at that time.

we had sharing. i shared more than i intended actually. sigh. might be due to the headache i wasn thinking straight. But i stopped in time la. in case i reveal more than alot. At those last hours of 2004, i felt v thankful and grateful to the pple that has been by my side the entire year. God, My parents, weimin, chiayi, huimin, xinru, even chiaying. haha... and only in those last hours did i realise how impt these pple are. THANK YOU!!!!!!!

new year's day was spent mostly in church. Had 2 sermons in the morning and lunch fellowship later. David was being weird again, wanting Hao kor kor one minute, and chia yi kor kor another. When i asked him who he actually wants, he said chia yi. But when i brought him to chia yi, he changed his mind. AGAIN. In the end i gave up, i just left him on the chair to continue calling, Hao, Polo, Chia Yi, Chia Ying, Ying jie jie, Na Na jie jie, Qi Qi jie jie, mummy, daddy. haha. he sometimes like dat lor, fickle minded and as indecisive as ME. hahah.

In the evening my family met my cousins Jason, Wilson and Joshua and my auntie uncle granny. It was my mom and dad's 20th wedding anniversary and i tink my auntie uncle's 21st. Haha. I tink they all purposely got married on the same day a year apart. So until now every year the 2 families will celebrate together on 1st Jan. V long nv had such a time to talk to Jason, so it was quite nice. He's like my big bro cuz when i was v young, i would go to his house while my parents at work, and they would pick me up after dinner together at Jason's place. So we 2 especially close.

Anyway... so that was my new year and new year's eve. But today din go so well. I got to see Xiu Jing la. which is the only plus point, cuz quite a few weeks din get to see her. She has to work 2 sundays out of 4 per month. Oh, and i saw her badge with that SGH logo and DR CHIA printed on it. so cool. But quite poor thing cuz she has it pinned to her beeper which she has in case something crops up at the hospital. It's really noisy la, everytime she switches it on. I guess being a doctor has its perks and disadvantages. hah. i can never and shall never be a doctor.

But the worse part was getting to see my sunday sch class arrangement. sigh. i tot this year we'll get to change. but NO. i am still in peihua's class. No, not complaining, cuz peihua laoshi is a fantastic sunday sch teacher. But i just don wan to be with my same age pple again. Sigh. i tot i would be with ZhiQing's batch this year or at least a mix. but No. sigh. i hate this kinda arrangement, when they put the entire Zhiqing's batch in another class and my batch in a class. I just click better with Hwei Ching, ZQ, XinYi lor. sigh. felt pretty unhappy abt it. budden what can i say rite.... at most i be like shiwei and disappear for a year from sunday sch lor. One year with my same age pple made me understand i REALLY cannot communicate properly wif any of them. Cuz all along in Teens i'm with ZQ and XinYi, Hweiz mah. In my age only can talk to JiaEn. which is super sad la, seeing how we ALL grew up together. All these years, still me and Jiaen closest. haiz. forget it. why am i telling u all these rite? U all wont get it anyways.

Got to talk to ZQ and Hwei Ching after a LOOOONG time and was v happy to find out we still can talk like we use to. ZQ finally can work towards her dream, NUS medicine fact. Hey, she'll be my cousin's junior. so cool. Budden now i'm helping her to check if NUS medicine faculty has any part time job for her... cuz my mom works there mah. haha. cannot imagine ZQ having to see my mom everyday next time. haha.

Also got to talk to Clara. She's leaving again for Adelaide 2 weeks later, so gotta call her soon to arrange an outing before she leaves~! argh. haha. but also glad to find out me and Clara still as good frenz as ever and nothing has really changed between us. Still can tell her everything and she still remembers alot. haha. Like she still remembers jie. and David. And Qingci etc.

oh, btw, these few days, i suddenly realise how nice xiaomei laoshi is. haha. as in, in comparision wif Jin Feng. And den i'm like starting to tell my bro how nice xiaomei laoshi is in comparision and how he muz treasure her(she's his sun. sch tcher this year). hahaha.... jeez, getting kinda spooked by Jin Feng these few days. No particular specific event la, just... aiya, i also dunno how to say. Then today had a super long chat with her. Enough to convince myself she is scary. and i am actually scared of her. arghz. But she was actually trying to be nice. what is wrong wif me?

sigh. tomorrow have to stay back in sch. cant believe it. FIRST day. FIRST pathetic day. and i already have to START WORK. argh. i mean, i know i had a nice start to the year. But... i can foresee this year is gonna be the toughest yet. Firstly, i am no genius, so i cant just close my eyes and get all As and distinctions. Secondly, look at the 22nd B.O.D, they came back to help for how long even though they stepped down? sigh. i can foresee myself walking in their footsteps. Thirdly, well, i shouldn say it here actually. nvm.

Which is why it isn difficult to imagine why i aren't really looking forward to a new sch year. why i am not so enthu abt 2005. I can see a VERY VERY busy VERY VERY hectic first half of the year. Later a VERY VERY depressing VERY VERY draining second half. Which if u tink abt it, is NOTHING GOOD. i'm really quite stressed over 2005. dreading it. really. i do not want to go back to sch, actually. if i can help it. and it isn that i don like TJ. I'm also dreading 2005. seems like a year packed and planned with awful events and depressing stuff.

School means: HuiMin, XinRu, LEP, Pple i enjoy being wif, TJC...
School also means: Exams, tests, MAGGIE GOH(enough reason to never return), Work work and more and more and more work.

and anyway i don want to be a senior. i don like to be older. i like to be younger and taken cared of.

geez. 2005 really IS nothing good. this is just so sad.

ah. on the brite side, i can see huimin and xinru again. and i'll be officially in year2. not that it's anything to celebrate abt. But then i'll be considered 18. which is actually not bad. i'm growing up! But hey, 2 vs a million down sides.... i'll rather stay in 2004.
Joyce at 8:54 PM

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